The past week was definitely filled with colors. Bright colors, yes. I could not contain the happiness I feel inside when with strong faith that finally, the universe has indeed conspired to meeting someone worth all the wait. The words I keep with me… Patience, Hope, Faith, Love, Trust and of course, Resilience in all of the decisions I have to make. Indeed, nothing comes easy in this world but as long as we have pure intentions in our heart, and not give up, the Heavens hear our fervent prayers. I will not get tired uttering the words, lucky, blessed, thankful, grateful for being surrounded by good and beautiful people and to meet one great person from the other side of the planet makes everything more worthwhile. The journey we have is definitely not an easy road to take but it is with our determination to make it work. All in. All out. It may appear scary that everything comes easy now and that it is all unfolding with God’s great timing, I am determined and strongly believe that it is a well-deserved process. It is my turn to taste what it feels like to be given and exerted an effort to. And that person, he deserves the best, too. Now that I have it in my plate, I will keep reminding myself of how blessed I am and that I have to remain faithful and humble at all times. We both have waited long enough and we thank the Heavens for finally allowing our meeting. Thank you, Jonathan. You are truly a blessing. Thank you for the effort and for having the courage of meeting the family I dearly love. That really means a lot to me. I am so lucky and blessed that you found me and we both found each other. I am truly blessed to have you. You are beyond an amazing peson. Thank you Lord. Thank you sweet Jesus. Let’s continue this amazing journey together holding hands and loving each other sincerely and faithfully, with God as our guide always. God bless us always. Vielen Dank mein Mann. Cheers to happy and good life always!
Jeepney Chronicles 18
Shucks! I missed writing last April. Perhaps, I was too preoccupied with many things going around. I cannot admit to using the word busy even if that is the matter of fact but yeah, it is true..it was hell busy. I always am but I am trying to shift the perspective every so often.
These days is rather pretty hard, I must say. It is my birth month and a lot is being thrown at my plate. Since May came, everyday is becoming a challenge even up to this day. And I am pretty sure that it will be for the rest of the days to come. One best example, when this month said exactly hello is the same exact time this lady stopped talking with someone who is supposed to become special. How cool is that? Well, it’s better this way, I guess (even if I am still hopeful deep down inside) rather than would go deeper only to find out that all will be put to waste. Effort is a must. Maybe, a separate blog is needed to let out some feelings. Next best example is counting the days at work. Anyway, more than work, it’s the inner mind. It is crazy. I am crazy. I cannot realize the things my mind is telling me to do but I am also powerless to everything that’s been going around. I am soon to leave work. It’s one big decision that I am proud to face. The decision didn’t come overnight. It was a series of many things..too much pondering..brief but meaningful encounter with loved ones..constant prayer..quiet moments..coffee moments..and a whole lot more for me to be able to come up with the best decision. Maybe, it is true, I am a lady of braveness and courage. And my being hopeful and resilient makes it all complete. Or, let’s just say that it is clear with myself the things that I want to be and to do further. You know, if society can talk, it would tell me that I should be scared by now and that, at this age feels like I have nothing. At this age, I should be settled career wise(not with love life yet, I know), the position that I have established is also something that one should not give up on easily.. Well, that’s society. My society is composed of immediate family and few true friends. Thanks to them. I am lucky that I don’t belong to that way of thinking. Perhaps, there is also truth that I am a different being. I don’t listen to the society. I go against the flow. Not that I intend to do so, but that is just me. I stand by my truth. I listen to myself. I go with my pace. Not the stereotype. It is a realization of a lot of things. Well, I am always grateful and blessed for the opportunities work has given me, I truly recognize that. But being stuck in one place is something I cannot see myself living in. Except if it is something that makes my soul alive, I definitely wouldn’t mind staying.
I am thankful for the wisdom. Life is not at all easy, I completely know that. I am perfectly aware that my path will always be a notch harder but I am embracing all of them. Every learning in between the battle is what makes me who I Em. Resiliency has become my terms. For someone who has been through hell a lot, it’s nice to come up with a lot of adjectives to describe oneself. And that becomes a bragging right. I am living life the right way, I know. It’s even nicer to know that you have the ability to touch people’s lives in your own little way. And the best part is that you affect them unknowingly. You affect them positively. I know I have many skills and gifts (which I feel thankful and very blessed to have) but most of the times, I tend not to recognize them. Not because I am scared of it but because I wanted to be a normal being. But maybe, I really am not. I am bound for greatness, I must say. It may not be easy indeed but with this greatness, my dream is to influence people the beautiful way possible. Shifting perspectives from a hard situation to handling it lightly and with smiles dealing with it. From solving a problem smiling rather than frowning. By simply greeting someone with a smile makes it a whole lot different. It makes the day worth living.
Now that I am about to face another journey, I am glad to know that the people I got to know and worked with can be called “friends”. Only a few matters and that is more than enough for me. I know it doesn’t end there. To hold a significant position in a company is indeed a challenge and a true test of being. I’m glad I knew the answers to all of the questions. Lessons are indeed valuable and meant to be treasured and practiced. It’s all worth it.
Next up, love life. I still have no idea what the Heavens is in store for me but whatever that is, I am more than hopeful and faithful. I’m ready. I pray that that person is as well.
Thank you sweet Jesus for all your graces. Thank you for letting me see and appreciate life in all ways possible. Life is love.
Cheers to good life always!
Jeepney Chronicles 17
At long last! I haven’t visited my blog in a very long while. Having enough time is indeed a privilege for me these past months. Not just with my blog but even having enough time to do other things. I have to make time to make things work and be possible. I cannot deny that things are really very tiring and you wished that one day, you just want a quiet moment,sit and waste time without the guilt. To come up with a big decision is really causing serious head ache if someone is focused on a particular goal. They say, you cannot have the best of both worlds so, a sacrifice is really a must. It takes a big leap and courage to step out of the something if it’s clear with you that you want some shift in life. Anyway, I will have a separate blog about life’s wisdom learned recently, for now, I want to focus and emphasize more on talking and bragging about the boss baby in the house.
HE goes by the name Gabryjel Aiden. He is now 3 months old. We thank the Heavens for his life everyday. We are also forever thankful that finally, he gave us an angel that is actually breathing and living. For those who somehow who reads my blog, you would understand where this thought is coming from. For those who have no idea, we lost my sister’s first baby. Nevertheless, all are great blessings. Baby Pio (parents are devotees of Padre Pio), as how we fondly call him, is sure a great joy to all of us. I am privileged that I get to touch, see and play with him. Pio is a happy and bubbly baby. I enjoy carrying him even if his weight is really a challenge. Well, it’s really nice that his weight is consistently showing progress. Such an active baby boss. Whenever I have moments with him, I realize how simple life is. I become emotional but no definite explanation why I have that feeling.. I just feel it. Just my heart feels something. To stare at him is heaven. His innocence is so pure. I know all babies are. I realized that babies teach us to live in the present. It would be pointless to think of the future. Present is where we enjoy being with each other. Simple moments are actually the most precious times of our lives and gives us more memory to keep. Babies teach us to savor each moment.
Happy 3rd month our dear boss baby! Thank you sweet Jesus for your life. We surely love you forever. Cheers!
my sanctuary
amidst all the doubt
you calm this restless soul
words are not enough
to express how much i truly appreciate you
you are so admirable for genuinely trying your utmost best to hang onto this
for that, i truly feel beyond blessed and grateful
you are more like a dream
and i can’t wait to wake up to our reality
that one day, some day, we will be in each other’s arms
admittedly, i may have doubted the Heavens for questioning the true meaning of all these
but you, staying loyal and remaining faithful, made me feel sorry for having these thoughts
and you, you truly inspire and amaze me
thank you for teaching me tons of lessons
sincerely thankful that you found me
thank you sweet Jesus for him, for being my reality
sure, one great reality is or are struggles
but it is also with strong assurance that we have a strong God to overcome all these, holding hands
and that the universe is conspiring to helping us create our happy reality
one year
one year…feels like yesterday
one year…and the longing still remains
one year..and you are still the source of both joy and melancholy all at the same time
one year…and not a single day we missed a thought of you
one year…
not just the start of remembering you forever but from the day you were gone
and to remember you is absolute for the rest of our lives
you have been a constant source of strength,inspiration and motivation to everyone
you,being taken away from us, makes us feel and gives us a strong conviction that heaven is real
one year…no questions were ever answered but learned acceptance and remain at peace with everything
Happy 1st year to you, my lovely nephew, Giovanni Aquil, in heaven. Thank you for being our direct guide to the Heavens. Thank you for letting us feel and love the unseen. You are a testament that God is strongly present and deeply felt.
Sure, we miss you.
Thank you for being our angel.
Forever love is what we have for you.
Thank you.
kindred soul
even though it is true that we are from different worlds,
still, it is amazing how two people meet
even though it is true that preferences vary
how amazing is it that at some point meeting halfway is never hard
even though it is true that when reality hits hard..that tiny percentage of actually meeting is way impossible
still, trying its best to cling on to that tiniest hope that someday, one day, we find ourselves in each other’s arms
it is undeniable that sailing with you is definitely a challenge
but
life is too short not to tell you i like you
life is too short not to enjoy and savor simple and quiet moments with you
life is too short not to let you know that i truly appreciate you
no matter how hard it may take
to look at it on a brighter perspective is what i chose to do
to be resilient gives me hope for tomorrow
for all its worth is not with assurance
but i don’t want to regret not trying to risk it
the battle might be endless
sure, the distance looks unimaginable
still, it is with deep hope
it is with deep faith
that neither opts to give up
as i am slowly choosing to fight for it
so, let’s keep holding hands, my love
remain faithful and hopeful as we journey to finding and to simply being with each other
all with God’s sweet and heavenly grace
bumpy
and so the clouds begin to form again
and so the vision sets to blur
and so the path leads to nowhere
and so the strength weakens
until tears begin to fall
until you cannot see anymore
until you get lost
just until everything becomes hopeless
what a great timing it has always been
such the heavens always puts a test
such questions remain unanswered
until you are powerless
until trusting becomes immaterial
until nothing is left
until then, tiniest hope clings to you
believing that
until then, miracles still in existence
mindblown
out of nowhere
you appeared
captured by your beauty
one day, life without you seems incomplete
i cannot imagine a life without you in it
how can you be so beautiful
capturing many hearts
you seem so surreal
glad that i own you
overwhelmed to call you mine
how great is our God for giving you as my greatest blessing
how beautiful is it that a creature from the other side of the world is meant to be yours forever
thank you sweet Jesus for your life
thank you that i get to share it with a wonderful being
cliche as it may sound, but words are not enough to tell the world how lucky and blessed i am to be sharing this life with you
maybe, i have done something good in my life for our paths to cross
May God bless you/us always and i look forward to more blissful and peaceful life with you
the heart is just overflowing with emotions
ready to plunge in whatever it takes
Jeepney Chronicles 16
The past months have been rather busy productive (well, I chose this word as it sounds more optimistic)that there was no enough time to visit my blog and write. I know for a fact that no one is actually reading my posts.. not even visiting but who cares, it’s mine, anyway. But, if there would be at least one person to visit and take time to read my writings, I am more than thankful so, thank you to you. 🙂 Going back, It’s been months since this ‘busyness’ kicked off … I’m not complaining, though, in fact, it’s considered a great blessing along with a great challenge– that’s one thing already expected. Challenges and more challenges to come. “With great power comes with great responsibility.” A very famous line that holds true to everything that we do. Anyway, even if the responsibility doubled, some things never change– the wandering mind and foot. The never ending thoughts, analysis, questions and realizations of a lot of things. Adulting, they say. My hope is that, for everyone who goes through this process, grows to be a more beautifully motivated and positive creature, ready to face all the challenges with poise, grace and class. Head up, high. It is also my hope that all of us keep shining. Even if there are times when you feel like your lights are dimming because of uncontrollable situations, always remind yourself that you shine the brightest. Even if there are days when you feel like you hit rock bottom, remind yourself to get up, shrug you shoulder, put yourself together and keep going. There’s no way but to keep going and move forward. If you are doing a great job, people will try to pull you down. Don’t mind them. Keep it up and keep getting better. Let it not falter nor shaken you. Keep doing what you are doing and prove even more that you are supposed to be where you are because you deserve it and that you are way better than them. Smile. Remain humble. Always. Influence them of your light.
Life indeed is a matter of perspective. If you are faced with a challenge, do you sulk yourself up and allow yourself to ruin your day? No. You can solve a problem while staying calm and smiling. Smiling or sometimes laughing at it doesn’t mean you are not doing anything about it rather, you chose to settle it with grace. Hindi ngarag. May problem na nga, haggard ka pa? No na. At least, carry it with grace and dignity. Those simple perspectives in life can actually help you grow become a greater and better being. If you feel like crying as well, cry. Nobody in this world said that it’s not good to cry in the middle of a hard situation. It will NEVER make you less of a person just because you shed a tear. In fact, it’s a sign that you are a strong being recognizing your emotions. It’s even good for your heart. The problem with us when we become adults is that, we become so afraid to show our emotions through crying. Why? Because we are afraid that people might judge us for being weak. But, it’s the other way around. Don’t be afraid to express yourself. So go ahead, give yourself a good cry to let out a heavy feeling but remember to still stay focused. Deal with the problem and have a clear solution about it. You can do it. Always tell yourself that you can do it. Breathe. Inhale. Exhale. Another thing, learn the art of keeping quiet. Learn to shut it down (a little). Literally, like having a quiet moment rather than panicking and overreacting at situations. You see, the more you panic and nag about a situation, the more an issue is not being resolved. Have a quiet moment to think and assess things. You might surprise yourself for coming up with a better and a more effective solution. Be resilient. You don’t need to react on every word you hear or they say. Learn to choose battles wisely. And lastly, the art of keeping a strong faith. Pray, if you must. Not because you need something from your God but because you want to simply thank Him for all that you have. Be it good or bad. All of it mold you into a better version of yourself every time. Have a thankful and grateful heart. You are blessed and beautiful in soooo many ways. Acknowledge and thank Him all the time. That goes with adulthood also.
I still have so much to say but maybe I will have to do it again next time. I’m glad that I was able to write again. I am thankful for days like this. I’m also very happy that even though I didn’t go elsewhere this Holy Week, I was able to spend time with my parents which I haven’t done in quite a while. Good times with them, as always.
Have a blessed Holy Week. Thank you for reading. Cheers to good life always!
To the person I almost fell in love with
Thank you that you took notice of me
For the longest time, I never had that feeling and I never knew that until you came and you took courage so, thank you
Thank you for teaching me to let go of the things a person really has no control of
Thank you that you helped me to trust (and to doubt) people again
Thank you because you taught me to cling on to that tiny hope
Thank you for helping me realize that I still can be an attractive person to a stranger. I thought I lost it but because of you, you helped me see that beauty again so, thank you.
Thank you for teaching me to respect someone who decides not to talk. Maybe, you are really afraid of talking for reasons I don’t know. It’s still hard to grasp but I’m getting through. Getting there. Silence and acceptance are two of the most important wisdom that will forever be remembered. But, I am still hopeful that in the future, you would learn to talk.
I was at my happiest when we were together unfortunately and as usual, time was not our friend but I’m really glad and thankful that you took the slightest time to get to know and be with me, at the very least.
I apologize for putting hope to something unsure
I apologize for simply wanting to unlock you along with your flaws
I apologize for I, simply wanted to be with you
The heart still has a lot of questions but I guess, it’s better this way. No, it’s for the best.
The decision to close the book was way way hard but it would be unfair to myself if I don’t do so. I also need to save her, she deserves nothing but the best.
All the best to you and I sincerely wish you nothing but a good life ahead! Cheers!
In my zone 