Sorting feelings is probably one of the hardest and craziest things to do in the world. One day, you’re happy, other times, you’re drowned in sadness. One minute it excites you, the other minute, it scares you. You can either easily give in to whatever you’re feeling or walk away and call it quits. The other part of you tells you to hold on, stay and fight for all its worth. The other side just tells you to shrug it off since it is just a waste of time. But, why is it a waste of time when the time that you are with someone is the most valuable thing in the world? You are at your happiest when you are with him so, how can that be a waste of time, then? You wished time would go slow or better if it stops just to spend more time with a loved one. Why can’t people just be together when they want to? Can they just not be together when they want to? Why others can easily do it? Why can’t you? Is it normal to miss someone whom you just met the first time or you just missed the feeling? Is that even possible? That’s just way too impossible, right? But it is happening. If you were the first to confess your feelings, it feels like you lost the battle. Is that even a battle, anyway? Can people not just express what’s on their mind for peace of mind sake? Should it always be a hide and seek of emotions? Long kept emotions that are just ready to explode anytime. It’s probably a feeling that you never had in a long time so, you felt like this could be it. What if you just missed the feeling? The feeling that someone took notice of you. What if you were just overwhelmed? Overwhelmed that after forever, someone is looking at you. Overwhelmed that you are enjoying days with someone. Yes, you could be.
It That could be. But, how do you actually know that it’s neither missing the feeling nor being overwhelmed? That…it’s something. There’s something in it. Or so, you hope. Something that you are willing and ready to take the risk. You are then ready to take the plunge. When is that time? When is that perfect time? The ‘perfect’ timing, they say. They even say, you will know it in your heart. But, how do you really know? What if you felt it but then, a lot of mixed signals are being given? What if you thought you’re ready but then, you need to face a lot of crazy challenges? What if you lost? Will it make you less of a being for not getting what you want? Perhaps. Of course, no one wants to be rejected, right? That’s the greatest fear we are afraid to face. You gave in but then, the other being is not actually ready. That’s a total slap in the face. That would really be disappointing and heartbreaking but what can you do? You need to let it out. Or hold it in as long as you can. But, why? Because for someone who’s been through a lot, it is just tiring and that damn feeling of rejection. You’ve got no time playing with emotions. More so, fooling around. It’s never good to do such things. And after all the heartache, you remain a hopeful being. You just want someone to be there. To be genuine. Anyway, do we ever have to feel sorry for being honest? For simply wanting to be with that person. For simply wanting to be wrapped around in his arms. For simply asking someone to stay. Is that too much to ask?