bumpy

and so the clouds begin to form again

and so the vision sets to blur

and so the path leads to nowhere

and so the strength weakens

until tears begin to fall

until you cannot see anymore

until you get lost

just until everything becomes hopeless

what a great timing it has always been

such the heavens always puts a test

such questions remain unanswered

until you are powerless

until trusting becomes immaterial

until nothing is left

until then, tiniest hope clings to you

believing that

until then, miracles still in existence

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mindblown

out of nowhere

you appeared

captured by your beauty

one day, life without you seems incomplete

i cannot imagine a life without you in it

how can you be so beautiful

capturing many hearts

you seem so surreal

glad that i own you

overwhelmed to call you mine

how great is our God for giving you as my greatest blessing

how beautiful is it that a creature from the other side of the world is meant to be yours forever

thank you sweet Jesus for your life

thank you that i get to share it with a wonderful being

cliche as it may sound, but words are not enough to tell the world how lucky and blessed i am to be sharing this life with you

maybe, i have done something good in my life for our paths to cross

May God bless you/us always and i look forward to more blissful and peaceful life with you

the heart is just overflowing with emotions

ready to plunge in whatever it takes

 

Jeepney Chronicles 16

The past months have been rather busy  productive (well, I chose this word as it sounds more optimistic)that there was no enough time to visit my blog and write. I know for a fact that no one is actually reading my posts.. not even visiting  but who cares, it’s mine, anyway. But, if there would be at least one person to visit and take time to read my writings, I am more than thankful so, thank you to you. 🙂 Going back, It’s been months since this ‘busyness’ kicked off …  I’m not complaining, though, in fact, it’s considered a great blessing along with a great challenge– that’s one thing already expected. Challenges and more challenges to come. “With great power comes with great responsibility.” A very famous line that holds true to everything that we do. Anyway, even if the responsibility doubled, some things never change– the wandering mind and foot. The never ending thoughts, analysis, questions and realizations of a lot of things. Adulting, they say. My hope is that, for  everyone who goes through this process, grows to be a more beautifully motivated and positive creature, ready to face all the challenges with poise, grace and class. Head up, high. It is also my hope that all of us keep shining. Even if there are times when you feel like your lights are dimming because of uncontrollable situations, always remind yourself that you shine the brightest. Even if there are days when you feel like you hit rock bottom, remind yourself to get up, shrug you shoulder, put yourself together and keep going. There’s no way but to keep going and move forward.  If you are doing a great job, people will try to pull you down. Don’t mind them. Keep it up and keep getting better. Let it not falter nor shaken you. Keep doing what you are doing and prove even more that you are supposed to be where you are because you deserve it and that you are way better than them. Smile. Remain humble. Always. Influence them of your light.

Life indeed is a matter of perspective. If you are faced with a challenge, do you sulk yourself up and allow yourself to ruin your day? No. You can solve a problem while staying calm and smiling. Smiling or sometimes laughing at it doesn’t mean you are not doing anything about it rather, you chose to settle it with grace. Hindi ngarag. May problem na nga, haggard ka pa? No na. At least, carry it with grace and dignity. Those simple perspectives in life can actually help you grow become a greater and better being. If you feel like crying as well, cry. Nobody in this world said that it’s not good to cry in the middle of a hard situation. It will NEVER make you less of a person just because you shed a tear. In fact, it’s a sign that you are a strong being recognizing your emotions. It’s even  good for your heart. The problem with us when we become adults is that, we become so afraid to show our emotions through crying. Why? Because we are afraid that people might judge us for being weak. But, it’s the other way around. Don’t be afraid to express yourself. So go ahead, give yourself a good cry to let out a heavy feeling but remember to still stay focused. Deal with the problem and have a clear solution about it. You can do it. Always tell yourself that you can do it. Breathe. Inhale. Exhale. Another thing, learn the art of keeping quiet. Learn to shut it down (a little). Literally, like having a quiet moment rather than panicking and overreacting at situations. You see, the more you panic and nag about a situation, the more an issue is not being resolved. Have a quiet moment to think and assess things. You might surprise yourself for coming up with a better and a more effective solution. Be resilient. You don’t need to react on every word you hear or they say. Learn to choose battles wisely.  And lastly, the art of keeping a strong faith. Pray, if you must. Not because you need something from your God but because you want to simply thank Him for all that you have. Be it good or bad. All of it mold you into a better version of yourself every time. Have a thankful and grateful heart. You are blessed and beautiful in soooo many ways. Acknowledge and thank Him all the time. That goes with adulthood also.

I still have so much to say but maybe I will have to do it again next time. I’m glad that I was able to write again. I am thankful for days like this. I’m also very happy that even though I didn’t go elsewhere this Holy Week, I was able to spend time with my parents which I haven’t done in quite a while. Good times with them, as always.

Have a blessed Holy Week. Thank you for reading. Cheers to good life always!

To the person I almost fell in love with

Thank you that you took notice of me

For the longest time, I never had that feeling and I never knew that until you came and you took courage so, thank you

Thank you for teaching me to let go of the things a person really has no control of

Thank you that you helped me to trust (and to doubt) people again

Thank you because you taught me to cling on to that tiny hope

Thank you for helping me realize that I still can be an attractive person to a stranger. I thought I lost it but because of you, you helped me see that beauty again so, thank you.

Thank you for teaching me to respect someone who decides not to talk. Maybe, you are really afraid of talking for reasons I don’t know. It’s still hard to grasp but I’m getting through. Getting there. Silence and acceptance are two of the most important wisdom that will forever be remembered. But, I am still hopeful that in the future,  you would learn to talk.

I was at my happiest when we were together unfortunately and as usual, time was not our friend but  I’m really glad and thankful that you took the slightest time to get to know and be with me, at the very least.

I apologize for putting hope to something unsure

I apologize for simply wanting to unlock you along with your flaws

I apologize for I, simply wanted to be with you

The heart still has a lot of questions but I guess, it’s better this way. No, it’s for the best.

The decision to close the book was way way hard but it would be unfair to myself if I don’t do so. I also need to save her, she deserves nothing but the best.

All the best to you and I sincerely wish you nothing but a good life ahead! Cheers!

Jeepney Chronicles 15

December — a month that many are both looking forward to and scares at the same time, is actually already here. In fact, it is almost done. It felt like a wind, everything has become so fast especially at this time. It felt like it’s running and it’s hard to keep up. The only choice left was to seize the moment, be happy and go with the flow. Over the last year, a lot has happened and it’s that time again for reminiscing.. the time for looking back.. more so, evaluating how the year was. How it actually went. Good and bad. Happy and sad. Expectations and frustrations. Promises uttered and left it broken. Some dreams realized and for the unrealized ones, the new year is something we just all look forward to. December — it was this month that someone said to look forward to it but as expected, it was frustration. It was just a slip of the tongue. Everything was just in passing. It was also this month that taught you to be more patient and wait for all its worth. But of course, you were wrong. How foolish of you to count on those words? You could’ve bursted all the bubbles ever since but it was a silent decision to hold on to it for so long a time. Silly you. How can hope be ever so powerful that it left you hopeless? How it gave you room to trust again but ended up doubting again? How can time give so much beautiful tomorrows but once it has arrived, it would leave you hanging? December — it is indeed a time where everything just seems so beautiful. It has so much positive and good energy despite all the not so good ones. It gives so much joy no matter how hard life is. Over the past months, we all had crosses to bear. No exception. We all had different struggles in different forms and shapes, but the last month of the year gives so much hope and color and it would carry on to the new year. Cliche as it may sound but it still holds true to the saying: new year, new beginning.

Whatever happened in the past year, let us all remain hopeful that beautiful things are coming. You deserve all the love this beautiful yet challenging life has to offer. Stay hopeful, faithful and always remember how blessed you are.

Happy 2018! Cheers!

sweet surrender

used to be anxious but learned to calm down

used to be worried but learned to let go

used to be nervous but learned to breathe

used to give in easily but learned to refuse when needed

used to be fooled easily but learned to play the cards well

used to doubt but decided to trust, anyway

used to always be in a hurry but learned to walk slowly and enjoy every step

you see, life is not always about sweets and smooth roads

it is most likely a bumpy journey to the mountains

but while you are on this never ending quest, never ever lose yourself

because at the end of it all, it is you, who matters the most

get up, beautiful being and be proud of who you’ve become

cheers to a meaningful life well-lived!

smokebreak

until when do you have to live in mystery

until when will you allow others to unlock you

until when will you let people see your real beauty

until when will you break the glass

until when will you let the world know that you, too, is a vulnerable being

until when will you free yourself from all the doubts

until when will you stop burning bridges

until when will you sit down and talk

i hope that when that time comes

the person in me is still here, ready to hold your hand and unfold everything