What’s stopping you from wanting to hold my hand?
What’s stopping you from wanting to talk?
What’s stopping you from wanting to lean?
What’s stopping you from expressing your mind?
What’s stopping you from wanting to argue?
What’s stopping you from wanting to teach?
What’s stopping you from sticking around and staying?
What’s stopping you from showing you care?
What’s stopping you from wanting to see me?
What’s stopping you from wanting to hug?
What’s stopping you from loving?
What’s stopping you from showing your feelings?
What’s stopping you from wanting to be with the one you love?
how can silence be ever so beautiful in the middle of the noise
how can simplicity give joy in the middle of complexity
how can simple acts bring so much hope in the midst of being hopeless
how can holding hands give so much security in the middle of instability
how can leaning bring so much assurance in the midst of doubt
how can time be so precious when you almost have nothing to spare
you even wished you had powers to freeze it
how can two people meet from different worlds, make the most of it but to be together is way out of reality
when i think of you, my mind starts to wander
when i think of you, it’s both happy and sad
when i think of you, one day it’s full of hope
when i think of you, the other day becomes hopeless
when i think of you, my eyes start to water
when i think of you, it feels home
when i think of you, it also feels running away
when i think of you, feels like i’m ready
when i think of you,
scare no, worry scares me
when i think of you, no matter how i would want to smile, it always leaves me to solitude
everytime i think of you, it always feels like on a cliff
whether to stand or to jump
hoping one day, enough courage will i have
not to think of you
when you thought of closing the book, it stays open
when you thought of not questioning, it gives an answer
when you thought of not talking, he communicates with you
when you thought of running away, he walks with you
when you thought of leaving, he stays
when you thought of crying, he laughs with you
when you thought of letting go, he holds your hand
a month ago, you were stepping on cloud nine
a month ago, you were in an unexpected bliss
a month ago, you were smiling ear to ear
a month ago, spark turned fireworks
a month ago, you wished it stayed this way forever
a month ago, you had a dream in reality
little did you know, falling into trap
little did you know, creating chaos
little did you know, wanting to hold onto it longer
little did you know, hoping to get it deeper
different worlds, that’s where you both belong
same book but you were on a different page
it’s now time not just to turn the page but to close the book
it was pretty a good book, anyway.
Why did a thought that someone would reach out ever crossed that crazy mind? Completely gone crazy. You just hope to overcome this silliness. It was just a night. A night that was filled with beautiful things. Felt like that after a long time, you found someone who will be of the same wave. But, keep in mind..it was just one night. It has to be clear that it was nothing. You both belong to different worlds. Nothing will ever transpire. There was nothing to it. What’s wrong with wanting to give in, anyway? Especially, if it would put a smile on your face. But, that’s barely it. Is it all about that, after all? Perhaps, to other or some people, it’s a yes. It’s that easy for them to drop everything as if nothing happened. Very shallow. Very casual. But to you, if possible, you would want something beyond and deeper than that — If not a relationship, how about a friendship? A good friendship that is sincere and is meant to last. A good friendship that is possible to unfold. Is that not possible? Creating and making a good company from someone who is so opposite, is that too much to ask? You always end up wondering, why others can be like that, why can’t you? Fate is just that playful and it’s making your heart really sad. It always gets you to wondering. Why meet someone who has someone? Why meet someone who already has a responsibility? What’s the purpose of all these? The thought of being ideal is killing you. Should you drop the thought instead and just go with whatever happens? A part of you says yes but the other part tells you to hold still. For now, accept the fact that no one is thinking of you. While waiting for the time that someone is actually consumed by your thoughts, continue the patience and remain real. Stay beautiful, young being!
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Now playing: Feeling better by Ne-yo
You were someone I thought who has so much substance but I was wrong
You were someone I thought who can save me but you drowned me
You were someone I thought I can give hope to but you are as hopeless as the others
You were someone I thought whose choices are the best ones but they are of the lowest quality
You were someone I thought who do things with class but you are totally out of it
You were someone I thought who want finer things in life but you are as cheap as the others
You were someone I thought who has so much depth but those are just words but never in action
You were just the same as the others
You are nothing different from them
You are all the same
It was all the same