Why did a thought that someone would reach out ever crossed that crazy mind? Completely gone crazy. You just hope to overcome this silliness. It was just a night. A night that was filled with beautiful things. Felt like that after a long time, you found someone who will be of the same wave. But, keep in mind..it was just one night. It has to be clear that it was nothing. You both belong to different worlds. Nothing will ever transpire. There was nothing to it. What’s wrong with wanting to give in, anyway? Especially, if it would put a smile on your face. But, that’s barely it. Is it all about that, after all? Perhaps, to other or some people, it’s a yes. It’s that easy for them to drop everything as if nothing happened. Very shallow. Very casual. But to you, if possible, you would want something beyond and deeper than that — If not a relationship, how about a friendship? A good friendship that is sincere and is meant to last. A good friendship that is possible to unfold. Is that not possible? Creating and making a good company from someone who is so opposite, is that too much to ask? You always end up wondering, why others can be like that, why can’t you? Fate is just that playful and it’s making your heart really sad. It always gets you to wondering. Why meet someone who has someone? Why meet someone who already has a responsibility? What’s the purpose of all these? The thought of being ideal is killing you. Should you drop the thought instead and just go with whatever happens? A part of you says yes but the other part tells you to hold still. For now, accept the fact that no one is thinking of you. While waiting for the time that someone is actually consumed by your thoughts, continue the patience and remain real. Stay beautiful, young being!
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Now playing: Feeling better by Ne-yo
You were someone I thought who has so much substance but I was wrong
You were someone I thought who can save me but you drowned me
You were someone I thought I can give hope to but you are as hopeless as the others
You were someone I thought whose choices are the best ones but they are of the lowest quality
You were someone I thought who do things with class but you are totally out of it
You were someone I thought who want finer things in life but you are as cheap as the others
You were someone I thought who has so much depth but those are just words but never in action
You were just the same as the others
You are nothing different from them
You are all the same
It was all the same
you, who said no questions, leave everything unanswered
you, who put smiles on people’s faces, are you happy?
you, who said stay positive, have you thrown negativity?
you, who gives great advice, do you follow it?
i, wanting to unfold everything, will just keep it this way
i, wanting to hold you tight, will just let go like a free bird
i, wanting to stay by your side, will just quietly walk away
us, a word that will never be
us, only exists in my world
It’s surprising to realize that even in the midst of busy, fast-paced day, you still managed to give a thought to someone who will never think of you. Strangely, you allowed your fool self to swim with thoughts. Thoughts that would sure hurt you. Thoughts that would both put a smile and tears. You’ve become so hopeful that it would hit you rock bottom. You even wished these thoughts would stop so that you can completely go on with what you are supposed to do. No matter how hopeful you would want to be, there’s always this part of you that says just quit and give up. Simply cut it. But..with just a slight encounter, you always go gaga. But no, you have to remind yourself to stop now and not allow yourself to be fooled again. No matter how hard it would take. There’s no one to blame but you, anyway. But, what’s wrong with wanting someone to want you as well? Should it really be this hard?
how many lies to know the truth?
how many mistakes to get it right?
how many wrongs to make it right?
how many stumbles to stand tall?
how many rejections to get in?
how many no’s to get that big yes?
how many frustrations to triumph?
how many tears to fully smile?
how many betrayals to trust?
how many sorrows to heal?
how many wrong people to meet the right one?
I never knew how it felt to be like this but believe me…. one day
I never knew what it felt to be called by that but believe me… one day
I never knew what it meant to be even called that but believe me… one day
I never knew how it felt to be loved by you but believe me… one day
I never knew what it felt like to be in that moment but believe me… one day
I never knew how it felt to be treated like a royalty but believe me… one day
I never knew what it felt like to genuinely trust again but believe me… one day
I never knew how it felt to hold hands with you but believe me… one day
I never knew when can I hear that from you but believe me… one day
I never knew when can I utter those words but believe me… one day
One day…. everything will just fall into its proper places. Everything will unfold right before your eyes. Just the right amount to everything. One day.
Wandering minds as usual. Hearing a lot of thoughts, expressions, sayings and everything in between left you thinking. “Don’t ask, just enjoy” The expression that left quite an impact. Such a striking statement. What’s that supposed to mean? What’s that supposed to imply? Does that mean that whatever the person is doing even if it confuses you, you should not dare ask rather, just go with the flow and enjoy it? No room for wondering. Well, in all honesty, you actually enjoy what you are doing and where you are right now but along the way, a lot of whys, what ifs run at the back of that crazy mind. But sure, you are enjoying the moment. Every tiny moment seemed really precious at this time. Is it all just play time? You’ve been here before so perhaps or most likely, it’s a big yes. You are completely sure that it was just nothing. But, you are secretly hoping, not. Especially that you know that the person will soon leave. Secretly hoping that it would lead to something more beautiful even if he’s gone but as always, that’s just too much to ask. Why meet in the first place? Why give room to what could bloom? Too much of a damn hope. Maybe, it teaches you lessons you never thought you still need to learn. Learn to really just go with the flow and not to be too hard on yourself. Learn not to take things too seriously. Just completely live with it. Live in the moment. If it works, fine, but, if it doesn’t, still fine, though. It’s good while it lasted. No matter how short the time was, you still hope that it was real, no lies. No sugarcoating. To you, who would be left behind, it’s okay that it was short, that it did not last but at least, it was real. There was truth to it(you would like to believe there was, after all). Since you are not the type, you are still trying to adapt and continue to learn the ropes.
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