The artist that I’m currently crazy about. CHRIS BROWN! Yeah, you read it right. Christopher Maurice Brown! Oh gosh,typing his name makes me super kilig na. I am a fan of RnB music well actually, music of all genres. I have a high appreciation for music, I must say, but, I seriously don’t know what got me to be this crazy. I know the name. I know the songs but I cannot explain exactly what happened why I got hooked. See? I’m such a late bloomer…with almost everything. But like I said, who cares? I’m in no competition with the others. It is not intentional but I am not the type who follows the fad. I am actually usually left behind. But that’s perfectly fine. Just my own pace. Being hooked with Chris Brown’s artistry is definitely one of them. It always feels like entering a different world. Usually, when I am into something, I really focus on it. I do extensive research. I watch everything. From interviews to live concerts. I read everything. I look at pictures. I save them. It’s also a first, I guess. He is the first artist I followed on Instagram. (Well, also a late bloomer in IG world, I recently had one. :)) I talk about him. I talk about how good of an artist he is and and as a person. It makes me smile. My friends think I’m crazy. Yes I am. I even influence some few good friends unnoticingly because of my endless stories and discoveries about him. YOu could just imagine how excited I am everytime I tell stories about him. Saya noh? 🙂 My siblings would even stare at me blankly everytime I share, talk something about him, the song, updates, etc.. They know I’m crazy and that’s fine with me. 🙂 They know the Chris Brown as a singer even before but I am different. I had zero knowledge about him. I mean, I heard his songs but obviously, didn’t focus. Now, it’s different. Entirely different. I know differently. I just knew recently. That’s why I am like this. People only know a little and definitely quick to judge. He’s been in public scrutiny from the time he started. Good thing, I was not part of that ‘public’. Most likely, I also know a little of him but I had no judgement. The fact is, I had so much respect. Watching him makes me think that he is indeed a good person. Of course, I might sound too much to everything but that’s how I really see it. I see something. Maybe, I was not blinded. Watching him makes me want to know him more. From the time I got hooked, I started listening to his music. I traced back his tracks and tried to understand his growth as an artist. I even listen to mixtapes. Okay, I listen to everything that involves him. The unreleased ones have more substance over the song releases in the market. It is a constant discovery for me. I cannot totally consider myself a fan because in my opinion, a fan would just want to see the beauty in everything their idols do. They just always give high praises about the person but if their idol did something bad or against with what they like, they would be the one to cast stones immediately and detest the artist. I am not like them. As I said, I am different. I want to see flaws. I watch concerts on youtube. Thank you, youtube. 🙂 I had the chance to watch his concert in Manila. See, I wasn’t aware that he was supposed to hold a yearend concert here few years back but for some reasons, it was cancelled. I had no idea.. Anyway, the concert that pushed through was a blessing for me coz I had the chance to see him live. Of course, I was heavens away with him but watching him perform live is so far, one of the most memorable events in this lifetime. Thank you siblings for the support. 🙂 So, going back to my craziness, I continuously trace back live performances. Along with the recent ones. Dancing is undeniably good. Damn good. He is indeed a performer. His voice is also no question but when I listen to him, I focus more on the little details. I wait for a flaw. Crazy, huh? To me, flaws in a live performance would be better. If not a flaw, an adlib or something different from the original record. That makes me respect him more. Artists in general.(Classical music is an exception, of course. :)) Well, it means he is human. He is an artist. There was this one show that I watched and listened closely, while doing the adlib, his voice suddenly broke.(Of course, it was pretty high) I found it really beautiful so, I kept listening to it and waited that moment where his voice would break. To me, that’s lovely. These are just a few testaments of my craziness with this young sir. I look the other way around. Somehow, I am happy though, that it is only now that I get to like him this much. He is a finer man now. He’s become a better being now, I suppose or I hope. I’d like to believe that way.
I don’t know how long would I go crazy but one thing is for sure, Chris Brown is one of the greatest artists in this generation. No doubt about it. He is such a generous artist to share the world what he has. He may have gone astray but I know along the way, he would surely get back on his toes and keep his real self in tact. His music is something that would never go astray. Music is something that would stay true and genuine to him. His music will be forever appreciated. You are historical, Chris Brown. Much love and thank you to you!
Thank you for taking the time in reading this craziness. I really appreciate it. 🙂